I get a lot of questions about my father when I present on my personal experience. What would make a father hurt their child the way my father hurt me? Its been something I’ve struggled with for the past 17 years. I don’t know but what I saw was a man who thought he had every right to do what he wanted to us. We were his family, his possessions.
What I figured out for myself is that my father was very proud, too proud really. He desperately wanted to be respected and treated like he was someone. But his world was very small and he terrorized me to try to get my respect and love. He terrorized me because he could. He wasn’t all bad. But he did some really bad things.
When he died he had long lost my respect and love. I felt sorry for him. All he had at the end of his life was some meaningless little trinkets and little to no respect from his family.
The Sum of My Parts Now Available
This memoir follows Olga as she splits herself into “parts” and develops dissociative identity disorder with the abuse, and then struggles to merge these parts and overcome the disorder in adulthood.
A Survivor’s Story Now Available
Olga’s critically acclaimed first-hand account of the impact of violence in her life is available in both English and Spanish.